i feel like i have a lot in common with you
since our kid's ages are approx. (15 & 11 for me)
dinner is cooking right now and one son is on
a ski trip with another family, (it is spring break),
and my husband & other son are throwing the baseball.
we can never leave town at spring bread cos we're
tax accountants and this is obviously our busy
time at work.
tomorrow i've got to go to work & reconcile a big
account. i'm just praying my eyes will mostly
cooperate. i just have to take life one day at a time.
i've have a couple of botox injections give me relief
and a couple haven't. i'm just now learning the good
attitude you're had from the beginning. last summer
through the fall i thought my life was over basically.
>People ask me how I am keeping such a good attitude about the whole thing. I'm afraid if I let my true feelings out I'm going to loose it.<
Glad to hear you have a good attitude! That's essential. But go ahead and loosen up -- have a good ol' screaming fit every once in a while. Keeping that stuff cooped up inside is keeping your stress level up, and that's causing a lot of your trouble. Gotta get it down, so blow off steam every once in a while. Just don't hit anybody, esp. the kids.
>Have to be tough for the children---I am mom. Sorry to sound like self pity. Just frustrated I guess. <
I don't know how old your kids are, but if they are old enough to understand what your symptoms are, my guess is that they can deal with straight talk about it. What they fear, of course, is that THEY will get that way, and you know that they won't, so tell them honestly what's happening and how you feel.
And yes, you are frustrated. We all are; that's out primary symptom, even more than the blinks sometimes.