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I would suggest that you consult a real Doctor about your depression, since many of the medications frequently cause interections with the nervous system that can have nasty side-effects. We might be able to tell you how a specific medicine affects us, but you might get an entirely different reaction, since BEB is at its heart a neurological condition.I have found the best thing to deal with depression is involvement in a Forum/Bulletin board like this one. You will find other people in the same boat who have won over depression, at least most of the time. --- Lynn
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Hi Bev. I understand how you feel. I was feeling very bad when I first got diagnoised. Which was Oct. 2000 but I had all the symtoms since JUly of 1999 and was at its worst Feb. 2000. I found this site and I was so happy selfish as it sound but I was glad I was not the only one with this dumb disorder (disease). Everyone has been so helpful. I have cried and laughed with these people I have never met any of them but God willing one day I will. I don't know if you believe in God but praying and leaving it up to him has helped me. Visit this site when you like there is always something going on. There are alot of great people here. I was once told that God will never give us anything we can not handle. I will pray for you. Hang in there.
Have a good cry that often helps and then find something to make you laugh. Cindy in California , today was the first day of my aerobics class I feel every part of my body , IT HURTS ALL OVER.
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Bev,I can really sympathize with you. I have chronic depression and have been on every antidepressant. Many of them can cuase dystonia, so I avoid them like the plague. They are not addicitve. I am now going to try light therapy. It is a special light called a "biolight" and I have to sit in front of it for 30 minutes a day. I don't have to stare at it, I can read, or watch tv or just be in the same room with the light. It looks like a desk lamp. Many insurance companies will cover the cost of it - about $400. I was so depressed when I was first diagnosed in 1997 with med induced Tardive dystonia, which included blephs. I have to say I agree with Lynn on this one. Best wishes,
Dee
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You could try shopping but that can be addictive too. I don't usually use shopping as a crutch but I had a traumatic experience in 1993 and bought a one year old car. It helped. Ann Doyle
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I believe many of us fight depression when we are not doing well. So you are in good company. These folks here make me laugh and cry and are a great source of strength and support. Writing helps me, putting it in perspective, positive people, positive thoughts...Faith, friends and family and helping others who have this *^$# disorder helps too. Feelings are real, just try not to get stuck in the bottom of the dark hole. Send for us, we'll help you out.
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Delaine, really !! I feel totally offended at the dirty language you are using on our BB. :-)
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Well too $#+* bad! Get over it. Love ya. Thanks for the laugh.
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Hi Bev, so sorry to hear about your depression, but most of us have been there, I'm sure. I know I have, the black tunnel seems so endless at times that you feel you will never see the light again, but there is an end to the tunnel and the light is there. I've been on a number of anti-depressants in the past and they all had side effects, the extent of which I don't even know. I will never know whether anything I took caused this disorder. I've been reading a book called
"The Antidepressant Fact Book" by Peter R. Breggin, M.D. and I KNOW that I will never touch another anti-depressant.
What helps me is working outside - garden work - exercise - writing a gratitude journal and talking to people who understand. If you don't have anyone who understands in your life, you can always come here to the BB where everybody understands.
If you need a pity party, just give the word, we give great pity parties!
Just stretch out your arm and we will yank you out of that black pit you are in.
Hope you feel better in a hurry.
Big (((((Hug)))))Christel in Ca.
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Bev,
Sorry to hear that you are struggling. I've have been battling depression and anxiety since college. My brother also deals with depression. Both of us have found relieve by taking Paxil and seeing a phsycologist. I have seen counselors for about 15 years on and off.
It took me 2 months to build up to the prescibed amount. I had many days that I didn't know up from down. And I slept a lot. I've been on it now for almost 6 months, and I have to say it has helped. Especially with the quality of my sleep. I also have a friend who suffers from SAD (the seasonal disorder). She takes antidepressants only from Nov - April.
As I posted before, one of Paxil's rare side effects includes spasms. So you have to weigh the pros and cons. I would suggest counseling before drugs.
Stay in touch with us all. Take care of yourself and be good to yourself. You deserve it.
Denise
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Bev, my art gives me a great sense of self worth, as well as my pets and my garden. Try and make your environment as pretty and clean as it can be, exercise (something i am still working on), and try and find something you are good at and enjoy. adapt any rules you can't follow with your condition to your own level of tolerance and don't be hard on yourself. Perfectionism is very destructive.
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P.S. Take B vitamins and "talk" on this support group.
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sometimes Philip helps, sometimes he doesn't.
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I have been depressed alot lately. My eyes has been worse this time
than they have ever been. When i get depressed all i what to do is eat
the sweeter it is the better it is.I try to hide all the candy,but my memory is not that bad yet that i cant find it.
I am going to win this battle.
Calling Curves for Women monday and work my but off.
Not eating any more candy. I can have willpower when i need it.
Now is the time.
Colleen in IL where it is cold today
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